A Year of “Tears”

It’s been a journey…
I started Tears last August, right after I turned in Longings. I wrote all through August while I helped my father recover after he blacked out and crashed the car.
I sat next to my mother’s hospital bed after her stroke, and I wrote on the plane coming and going from her funeral in September to keep from sobbing among strangers.
I wrote even while angry that Longings had been refused by Amazon, and Memories banished to the “adult dungeon”, because of the word “slave.”
I wrote for 5 weeks while I was out of work and thanked the gods that my writing could support us. Most of that writing I erased.
I put my pen down long enough to take my sweet kitty to the vet to be put to sleep, after cancer had invaded her body. And I stopped writing at all after the election.
Parin and Mercer stopped talking to me for months.
I did take up the pen long enough to do a short story for the Black Light Valentine Roulette anthology. And then I put it down again because my son was drowning in school and needed us every night to help him survive.
Finally, in late May, my defiant slave and her exasperated Master spoke to me again.
It’s been a year of grief and sorrow and stress, and I can’t think of a better name for this book.  I hope you think it’s worth the wait.


Michael Andrews

Puppies.  Always end with puppies. Or kittens.

Transcript of Televid Interview with Mercer Pennis

Midrosian Chronicles, nonconsent, punishment, sci-fi, Slave, Tears

Note: Though this is not actually in Tears of Surrender, it was fun to imagine what an interview might have been like with Mercer soon after Parin becomes his slave.  Women on Midros are trained from the age of 5 to be slaves, but Parin was raised off the planet since she was a baby when her parents escaped. She’s been recaptured as an adult. This is about two weeks after arriving at Mercer’s house.
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Transcript of on-camera interview with Mercer Pennis about his new slave, including some interesting behind-the-scenes interaction after the interview ends.

Reporter: Thank you for allowing us to interview you in your home. So, Mr. Pennis, all of Midros wants to know how it’s going with the first off-world slave in a generation?  Your father made such a stunning bid for her the other week.  How did she end up here, with you? Did he purchase her for you?

Mercer: Not exactly.  But let’s just say that we came to an understanding about ownership, and now she’s here. <He leans down to pet the head of the slave kneeling next to him.  She’s naked except for her silver collar, and bent over with her face almost to the floor. Her blonde hair is pulled back in a tie, and the ends of a bit gag peek out of the corners of her mouth. Her hands are folded neatly together under her chin. >

Reporter: I see that her ass has a number of cane strokes running across it. How difficult has it been to train her?

Mercer: There’s been a few challenges.  She definitely has no understanding of her role.  She thinks it’s acceptable to speak to me any time she wants, in any manner she wants. I’ve whipped her several times for that, and she’s been wearing a gag since last night for one particularly outrageous outburst.

Reporter: Yes, she’s certainly quiet right now. You have her collar on a short chain that’s bolted to the floor.  Is this a punishment?

Mercer: No, it’s just some education.  She doesn’t stay where she’s put, or come when she’s called, either.  So she’s going to practice staying still for a few hours, and I’ll punish her for any movement. I might put some ginger up her ass to make it more challenging.

< Sound of whimpering from the slave >

Reporter: Hmm, it appears she has something to say about that.

Mercer: Yes, she’s just earned another cane stroke.  I’m also teaching her to get used to me touching and stroking her any time I want to.  She told me the other day to stop doing that.

< Disbelieving laughter from the camera crew out of sight >

Mercer: Yes, it was amusing. I think she’s getting more used to it, though, and she doesn’t protest as much anymore. < He runs his hand down the slave’s back, between her cheeks, and then slips several fingers into her cunt.  She squeals. He frowns, but when he pulls his hand back up it’s wet.> I think it’s harder for her tonight to be displayed in front of so many people.  It’s just been the two of us for a couple weeks. My apologies. But overall, she’s responding well to my conditioning.Depositphotos_38452853_m-2015 cut out

Reporter:  No apologies, please.  If we want to see a trained slave, we’d just go home.  It’s fascinating to see what an untrained one acts like. You showed us how wet she is now.  Does she stay like that always?

Mercer: Most of the time.  I edge her four or five times in the morning, then after lunch, and again before bed.  If I do a random check in the day and she’s not wet, I’ll edge her then and there.  In a few weeks, it will be automatic for her to remain  wet, and then I’ll reinforce the lesson by spanking her if she’s dry.  Spanking her always makes her wet and more submissive, so we do it at least once a day in addition to any punishments.

Reporter:  I see she has an electrochaste belt on.  Has she actually tried to masturbate?

Mercer: Oh, yes.  We had quite the time with that.  She managed to sneak one past me when I didn’t have the shocks turned up enough. 

Reporter: What did you do?

Mercer: I turned the shocks up two levels, so the first shock is really unpleasant, and the second is awful.  I had to hold her down and trigger it to demonstrate to her what would happen, and she certainly learned her lesson.  Didn’t you, Parin?  <He strokes the back of the woman again, and when she doesn’t answer, he gathers her hair in his hand and tugs her head up.  He’s surprisingly gentle even though she’s being disobedient.> 

Parin?  Did you learn your lesson about masturbating? <The slave nods yes, and he lets go of her hair, then strokes her back.  She’s trembling, and he continues to stroke her, talking in low tones, bent over and close to her ear.  She nods again.  He sits back up.>

Reporter: May I ask what you just said to her?

Mercer: I told her she was being good, and that I was proud of her.  I feel it’s important to encourage them as well as punish them.  It makes for a more well-rounded slave.

Reporter: That’s an interesting philosophy.  Very modern. What other issues have come up?

Mercer: Well, I don’t trust her not to run, so she wears chains between her wrists and ankles that are too short for her to stand up. Even when she’s ready to be allowed to walk, I’ll be keeping her on a leash for a long time.  I hope it’s not too many years, but it depends on how well she settles down.

Reporter: Any plans to brand her?  That’s very popular right now.

<The slave tries to look up and when the chain on her collar is too tight, she begins to fight it, yanking her head and swinging her hips, obviously attempting to get away. Mr. Pennis tries to speak to her but she isn’t listening.  Everyone in the room is watching, fascinated by this act of rebellion.  He kneels down next to her, calling her name.  He’s very patient with her.  Finally, he puts one hand on her neck to pin her in place, and with the other hand he smacks her red bottom several times.  His spanking technique is good, and each slap leaves a dark red imprint behind.  She stops struggling after five blows.  She’s crying.  He leans over her once more and talks too softly for us to hear, then to our surprise he unbuckles the gag from her mouth. She says something quietly to him, and he replies back, and then pets her head as he stands up.

Mercer:  Apologies again.  The idea of being branded is terrifying.  I just reassured her I wasn’t planning to do it to her.

Reporter: Why did you tell her that?  You could have used that fear to keep her under control.

Mercer: I don’t believe in lying to her.  I think she’ll become more obedient if she knows she can trust me.  I know that’s not a widely-held opinion.

Reporter: You are certainly right about that. Does she have any skills, or are you having to teach her those, too?

Mercer: <chuckles> She doesn’t know how to cook or clean, and she’s having to learn everything about pleasuring me. I don’t know what she was taught where she lived before, but it wasn’t anything useful. 

Reporter: Well, we’re just about out of time.  Thank you for allowing us to do this interview.  This has been fascinating.

< They stand and shake hands.  The bright lights turn off, and the crew starts gathering things together. It takes them about 15 minutes.  The slave is still in her kneeling position as Mercer talks quietly with the reporter. Then she lifts her head as much as she can and surprises the whole room by calling out to him, begging to be allowed to move, claiming she’s cramped and in pain.  He shakes his head no to her as a good owner should when a slave begs for something, but she stuns everyone again by asking again.  He excuses himself from his conversation and returns to her side, picking up the gag and pushing it back into her mouth.  She starts crying again, but as he talks to her and strokes her head she quiets.  He’s a surprising mix of stern and gentle.  We’ll have to see if it works, and if he’ll grant us another interview so we can follow along with her progress.>

Punishment Restores the Balance

Midrosian Chronicles, punishment, Tears

From “Tears (of a Slave)”  I’m having fun posting teasers!

Continuing their discussion of punishments after Mercer spanked Parin at the dinner table:

“I don’t want to be punished!”

He smiled at her much like a tolerant parent with a naughty child. “No slave is ever perfect. Punishment reinforces what you did wrong, and gives you the incentive to correct your behavior.”

“But – but – where I come from, when I make a mistake, i apologize, and try to do better next time. You don’t have to punish me!”

“But I’m going to make you do things you don’t want to do. And when you rebel, having to apologize isn’t enough to give you the incentive to change your mind. Punishment – usually painful, and always unpleasant – restores the balance that gets upset when you decide that your will is more important than mine.”


I think that’s my new favorite explanation of why slaves must be punished. 

Disrespect Must be Corrected

Midrosian Chronicles, punishment, Tears

Hello my lovely readers! I have a juicy excerpt from Tears – Book 3 of the Midrosian Chronicles.  It’s the story of Parin, a free woman, who is in the wrong place at the wrong time, and ends up a slave to Mercer, the man who rescued her from an even worse fate.

 In this scene, she’s still learning what being a slave means, and he knows it’s hard, and that sometimes she’ll say things she shouldn’t.  He’s giving her a punishment blowjob to help her remember her place.

He pulled out and she coughed hard.
“Look at me! Who owns this mouth? Is it you?”
There was silence.  He tightened his hand in her hair, knowing she needed an incentive to answer.
“Ow!  No, sir, it isn’t me!”